Full-Blown Agony: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain behind one eye that lasts for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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